Monday, March 23, 2009 @ 4:14 AM
love or just random feeling ?FORKING SHIT !
i don't know what's up with me .
ain't being myself lately .
angered .
hurt .
sad .
& stuffs .
it just makes me feel all worn out .
finding answers to questions in my mind .
leading me to uncertainty .
trying to sort things out .
hope things will turn out right .
can no longer hold back the tears .
just waiting for time to tell it all .
ain't gonna regret the decision that i've made .
feeling down but yet staying strong .
ain't gonna let all this thing pull me back .
filled with anger but nort wanting to let it out .
all those happy moments &
all those times are meant to be kept as memories .
nort wanting to let all that hurt me even more .
just want the best for him .
bygones are bygones .
no point regretting .
always look ahead .
& everything happens for a reason .
wishing him good luck & hope he'll be happy always .
takecare my dear frend .
suddenly felt this feeling that i never felt before .
going crazy over it .
a crush .
or perhaps more to love .
couldn't stop thinking bout it .
but trying to overcome it .
can't possibly do anything except to go with the flow .
never thot i'll get serious bout it .
but maybe i am after all .
thinking to myself every night .
wondering if its for real or nort .
this time , i'm pretty shure that its for real .
even then , i feel scared .
i don't wish to go through all this again .
i just wanna be free & happy .
i don't want to let all this stupid stuffs stop me from getting on with my life .
i admit i have my own weaknesses like everyone have .
how to overcome it ; still figuring .
life has its ups & downs .
sometimes in life , we don't always get what we want .
if we want something , we have to go get it .
we have to put our heart & soul into something if we want the best out of it .
talking bout the past may hurt but sometimes , it can be quite a memorable one indeed .
we may fight , argue & stuffs .
but through all this fights & arguments , that's when we bond together as one .
understanding one another might be hard .
but trying to keep one another is harder .
learn to listen .
& appreciate one another .
currently missing those past times .
wish i could turn back the time .
but its too late now .
nothing that i do will make things betta for me & him .
