Tuesday, May 5, 2009 @ 6:04 AM
HURTFUL .
why is all this happening to me ?
why is it me who gets all the blame ?
what's my fault anw ?
heard of the word friends ?
i bet it should be wonderful to have friends , right ?
having friends is wonderful but trying to find true friends ain't that easy .
if i regard them as a sister , what do they regard me as ?
i've changed alot ; maybe .
what if i say this is who i really am ?
will they be able to accept me for who i am ?
i've been pretending to be happy cause i don't want them to worry bout me .
maybe they don't see the inner side of me .
i guess they don't understand me after all .
i started it all ? hell yeah .
i guess i did .
but then it didn't fight with them .
i just didn't feel like talking to me .
whenever i tried to , it's like my heart is stopping me from doing so .
i make faces at her ?
if they didn't make faces at me , i wouldn't have make faces at them .
go on , put the blame on me all you guys want .
it's nort going to affect me .
my bestie ; akmal .
i know that things ain't right .
somehow , i feel like you're going to avoid & ignore me .
things have been nice & wonderful with you around .
i don't know why but this time , my heart isn't giving me the confidence .
i know i've hurt you in the past but we can start anew , can't we ?
i admit that i still have feelings for me .
okay , it's love .
i still love you but i can't force you to love me if you don't .
all those captured moments , it kept playing in my mind .
every night , i cry for you .
i don't want you to suffer .
i don't want you to feel hurt .
i won't let you go through any pain .
if you have to , i'll be with you through it all .
i don't know if i'll get another chance to be with you .
but if i do ,
i promise to treat you betta .
i promise to make you happy always .
i promise nort to make you shed any tears .
i promise to be there for you .
i promise to stand up for you .
& lastly , i promise to love you sincerely .
will 11 may be a day that i get my happiness back ?
i wish so .
i know i can't be a perfect gf for him .
nobody is perfect .
but i wish to be the best for him .
forgive me for the mistakes that i've done .
labels : waiting for a miracle to happen & i love him .
