Saturday, August 15, 2009 @ 6:44 AM
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY KHAIRIL !
legal age laa seyh . hahaha . well , wish you all the best in everything that you do . smiles (:
childhood memories .Sometimes , i do miss my childhood memories . Times seems to pass by so fast . How i wished i could turn back the time , i'll be very happy . Perhaps if it happens , i'll be able to change certain things . But then , i still love things the way they are now . Except for certain things . I don't like people telling me that they like me or whatsoever cause i don't want to hurt people anymore . I don't want to feel hurt anymore . Well , i know i'm being kinda unfair but i just want to live my life . I don't want to be in a relationship and get myself hurt for nothing , simply nothing . I don't regret for whatever that has happened . What's the point of regretting over things that has happened . It only makes myself feel bad . In fact , i shouldn't be regretting because things happen for a reason . Maybe there's something behind all this . Anw , now i and him are just friends . I'm glad that we can still be friends cause to me , friendships means more than relationship . Well , i've moved on and so , i don't want to think about the past . I just want to continue with my life because there's still a long way to go . All i can do is to be there for him when he needs me . But i'm sure that he'll do just fine .
For the time being , i don't wish to meet someone . Well , i do treat him as a friend but nothing more than that . I don't want to have any misunderstanding between the two of us . And i don't want him to like me cause i don't wish to spoil this friendship . I admit i'm trying my best to avoid him cause i don't want him to be too close to me . I don't want him to have the wrong thinking . I don't have any feelings for him , that's the only thing that i want to make it clear to him . I don't like it when he tries to seek attention from me . I know he'll be reading my blog so i hope he understands if i avoid him .
Currently i miss my bestie . Wondering why he hasn't been replying my msgs . Well , he seems to know everything . I don't why he's so special to me . Only he understands me inside out . He's able to bear with all my craps and nonsense . Having him around makes my day more cheerful and happier . I don't know what he did that made me get glued to him . Seriously , i don't . But i really want to know what's in his heart . Eventhough he's hurt me so much , i'm nort mad at him . Not even a little . Amazing huh . Well , maybe because he's special . I really love this friendship . I don't want to lose him . He really make me happy because he allows me to disturb him . I can even be sarcastic to him .
Somehow , i miss the past . Both friendship and relationship . Things just seem to be different . People started changing . Things started to go wrong . All those memories , sometimes flashes through my mind . Thinking about it , i feel so useless . It's like i'm only able to look at all those things happening but i'm not able to do anything about it . I know that i'm always being too king to people . Even my closest friends said so . But that's me . No matter how much i try to be angry with someone , it can only last for 3 days . Even if i don't talk to him or her for a week or more than that , it's because my heart doesn't want to and not cause i'm angry with him or her . It's a sad thing that only a bunch of people are able to appreciate my kindness instead of taking advantage of it . It makes me feel so weak . I don't think i can bear it if another person comes and take advantage of my kindness . I just don't know why i'm like this . Maybe i'm born to have a heart like this . No wonder Afiq calls me 'kampung girl' cause i'm a nice girl . Well , maybe to him i'm a kampung girl . But i don't know if i'm a kampung girl to the people out there . Different people have their own opinions about me . One thing about me is that i can't stop trusting people . Even if they've never been truthful to me , not even once , i can still continue to believe that person . Well , this is who i am . I believe that everyone deserves a second chance . It doesn't matter how bad or good they were before . It's the things that the person do that makes him or her someone different . Everyone have a heart and a brain . Everyone have their own strength and weaknessess . Nobody is perfect . Thus , we should appreciate a person for who they are .
For the time being , i don't wish to meet someone . Well , i do treat him as a friend but nothing more than that . I don't want to have any misunderstanding between the two of us . And i don't want him to like me cause i don't wish to spoil this friendship . I admit i'm trying my best to avoid him cause i don't want him to be too close to me . I don't want him to have the wrong thinking . I don't have any feelings for him , that's the only thing that i want to make it clear to him . I don't like it when he tries to seek attention from me . I know he'll be reading my blog so i hope he understands if i avoid him .
Currently i miss my bestie . Wondering why he hasn't been replying my msgs . Well , he seems to know everything . I don't why he's so special to me . Only he understands me inside out . He's able to bear with all my craps and nonsense . Having him around makes my day more cheerful and happier . I don't know what he did that made me get glued to him . Seriously , i don't . But i really want to know what's in his heart . Eventhough he's hurt me so much , i'm nort mad at him . Not even a little . Amazing huh . Well , maybe because he's special . I really love this friendship . I don't want to lose him . He really make me happy because he allows me to disturb him . I can even be sarcastic to him .
Somehow , i miss the past . Both friendship and relationship . Things just seem to be different . People started changing . Things started to go wrong . All those memories , sometimes flashes through my mind . Thinking about it , i feel so useless . It's like i'm only able to look at all those things happening but i'm not able to do anything about it . I know that i'm always being too king to people . Even my closest friends said so . But that's me . No matter how much i try to be angry with someone , it can only last for 3 days . Even if i don't talk to him or her for a week or more than that , it's because my heart doesn't want to and not cause i'm angry with him or her . It's a sad thing that only a bunch of people are able to appreciate my kindness instead of taking advantage of it . It makes me feel so weak . I don't think i can bear it if another person comes and take advantage of my kindness . I just don't know why i'm like this . Maybe i'm born to have a heart like this . No wonder Afiq calls me 'kampung girl' cause i'm a nice girl . Well , maybe to him i'm a kampung girl . But i don't know if i'm a kampung girl to the people out there . Different people have their own opinions about me . One thing about me is that i can't stop trusting people . Even if they've never been truthful to me , not even once , i can still continue to believe that person . Well , this is who i am . I believe that everyone deserves a second chance . It doesn't matter how bad or good they were before . It's the things that the person do that makes him or her someone different . Everyone have a heart and a brain . Everyone have their own strength and weaknessess . Nobody is perfect . Thus , we should appreciate a person for who they are .
I miss my bestie .
