Wednesday, August 12, 2009 @ 3:33 AM
PAPERHEARTS.
I've finally awaken from this dream of mine. I couldn't think of any other way but to stop contacting you. But i know that you'll find for me one day. Just on a particular day when you really need me. Perhaps i'm just dreaming. You say that you're jealous when you see me with other guys. Well, so am i. I'm jealous too when i see you with other girls but what can i possibly do. You're not my boyf. You're just a friend of mine, bestfriend i mean. It's sad that we don't seem to get along well anymore. I would get angry or mad. I'll just go with the flow because i'm sick and tired of trying to make things better but people don't seem to appreciate. Instead they blame it on me. Go on, live your life. I'm not going to stop your way. But if you find me being rude to you, don't say so because for the past 2 years, i've been nice to you but you don't seem to appreciate. I just wonder why when i'm being nice, people don't seem to notice but when i'm being harsh or rude, people will tend to notice. I don't want to have any hopes in you anymore because i don't want to get hurt. I just want to live my life and be happy with my loved ones. I want to treasure and cherish every moment before it's gone. I don't want to regret it later on. Now, there's only two things on my mind. To be friends with you or to stay away from you for the time being. Hmm, i really don't know. It seems so hard for me to decide. Maybe i should just go with the flow. Well, time is running out. If i have to make a move , i think i better make it now cause i don't have much time. I won't say that i'm angry or mad at you because truthfully, i'm not. In fact, why should i be mad at you. I guess i just need time to get over my feelings towards you.
Today had maths paper 2 and history paper.
Maths paper 2 was quite okay , i guess.
But for me, history was abit better because i studied for it.
Well , not really studied laa but i did remember a few factors.
And that helps me to answer one of the essay.
Paper ended at 12.25pm .
Went to mcdonald's and started doing my DNT cause i had to pass it up by today at 4pm.
Afiq was talking nonsense the whole time but i wasn't bothered by him.
I was really concentrating on my DNT.
Dinah was his victim.
She had to entertain all his craps and nonsense.
Tomorrow have DNT paper and it ends at 9.30am .
I don't know what to study for the paper but i hope i can do the paper.
clueless and going dumb .
