Friday, October 30, 2009 @ 10:09 PM
BBQ at east coast .
at last , farahin uploaded the pichares .
have been waiting for it .
at last , farahin uploaded the pichares .
have been waiting for it .
heen elfenzo .
heen elfenzo and t.m.i .
superfidd .labels : miss all the great fun .
perhaps , it's time to move forward .
Thursday, October 29, 2009 @ 8:57 PM
no longer around me ; it's almost gone .
as i try stepping on a new stone , it seems like something's pulling me back .
i'm nort shure whether it's trying to stop me from moving forward or it wants me to keep holding on .
efforts have been made , lots of it but nothing's changing .
feel like giving up or perhaps , i've already given up .
i gave you my trust .
i treat you as my bestfriend and you're like a sister to me .
i respect you and i respect your decisions .
whenever your mood swings , i just kept quiet because i know you well .
when you don't have the mood , no one can advice you or tell you to do something .
you have a strong will and also you're good at standing up for yourself .
but since the day you joined the dance group , i had this feeling in my heart .
a feeling which tells me that i'm going to lose you .
i never believe it until today .
because i treat you as my bestfriend , i tell you what i feel about you changing .
i don't mind you being angry with me or whatsoever .
but i guess i have the right to voice out .
i'm nort saying that i'm perfect because no one is .
in fact , i'm nowhere near perfect .
you told me that l*** uses words that contradicts herself but what about you ?
i'm nort trying to be sarcastic but i'm just saying the fact .
you can easily tell me that people change .
but when we say about people changing , it usually means changing to become bad .
since it's that way , what if everyone in this world change , who will be good then ?
well , i really don't know what to say .
you've changed alot , inside out .
now , i've given up .
if you think you're right so be it .
i won't say anything .
i won't go against you .
as long as it makes you happy , i'm fine with it .
labels : i miss the old you .
as i try stepping on a new stone , it seems like something's pulling me back .
i'm nort shure whether it's trying to stop me from moving forward or it wants me to keep holding on .
efforts have been made , lots of it but nothing's changing .
feel like giving up or perhaps , i've already given up .
i gave you my trust .
i treat you as my bestfriend and you're like a sister to me .
i respect you and i respect your decisions .
whenever your mood swings , i just kept quiet because i know you well .
when you don't have the mood , no one can advice you or tell you to do something .
you have a strong will and also you're good at standing up for yourself .
but since the day you joined the dance group , i had this feeling in my heart .
a feeling which tells me that i'm going to lose you .
i never believe it until today .
because i treat you as my bestfriend , i tell you what i feel about you changing .
i don't mind you being angry with me or whatsoever .
but i guess i have the right to voice out .
i'm nort saying that i'm perfect because no one is .
in fact , i'm nowhere near perfect .
you told me that l*** uses words that contradicts herself but what about you ?
i'm nort trying to be sarcastic but i'm just saying the fact .
you can easily tell me that people change .
but when we say about people changing , it usually means changing to become bad .
since it's that way , what if everyone in this world change , who will be good then ?
well , i really don't know what to say .
you've changed alot , inside out .
now , i've given up .
if you think you're right so be it .
i won't say anything .
i won't go against you .
as long as it makes you happy , i'm fine with it .
labels : i miss the old you .
Saturday, October 10, 2009 @ 7:50 PM
FEELINGS UNDIVIDED.
Things ain't the same no more . Nothing is left for me to say . It's beyond what i expected . It just happened way too fast . Words are unspoken . Question are left with no answers to it . Trying real hard to cling on but it just keeps pushing me . No words can describe how much i care for you . You told me ; let the past be the past . It's okay , i can accept that . In fact , it makes me feel more relief cause maybe that's the thing that i want to hear from me . Sometimes , my thots make me think . Maybe it's meant to be this way . Maybe it's just nort right for us to continue being friends . But still , i believe that there's a reason to it . I kept believing that things will change . I have hopes on you , just too much hopes that make me so hurt easily . I'm nort jealous of you being with her . Instead i pity you . She doesn't even treat you like you're her boyf . She's entertaining her guy friend but nort you . Is it fair for you ? Well , i don't think so . I know that everybody wants to be happy . Only idiotic people doesn't want to be happy . If possible , everybody want to get what they wish for . But underneath it all , sacrifices have to be made . Sometimes , we have to sacrifice for the people we love but they may nort see it . However , it doesn't mean that they don't appreciate . Maybe they're just too busy to notice it . I'm able to accept the way you treat me . I'm able to accept the fact that you belong to someone else . But i'm just nort able to forget about everything . But i know that i have to sooner or later . I can't get stucked to you forever . If you can be happy , i want to be happy too . I've tried everything that i could do but nothing's working . I can't find any other way except to stay away from your life . I just hope you don't get me wrong . I don't hate you and neither do i have any grudge against you . I just feel that it's the best for both of us . Maybe after my heart is fully healed then i'll get back to you .
; 'N' level is going to be over tmrrw .
planning to go to school for course then after course , go to work .
that'll be almost my daily routine from 14 oct to 23 oct .
after 23 oct , work and work and work .
; hoping for a change in him .
; 'N' level is going to be over tmrrw .
planning to go to school for course then after course , go to work .
that'll be almost my daily routine from 14 oct to 23 oct .
after 23 oct , work and work and work .
; hoping for a change in him .
